Myself

I don't really know who myself is. I can't tell. Sometimes I hate being myself. I may always look happy a, but no one ever knows what I feel inside my heart. I'm actually lonely and sad kind of person who pretends to be happy everyday. This role is not easy to play. I have so much to think about each and every day, why can't just leave me alone and just free me?

My friends always push me to get a partner and can have all those sweet sweet moments. I understand that but if I am not fated to have a romance then why forcing myself to? I'm very stress you know! I do like alot of people, but is there anyone I truly love? Yes? No? I don't know!

My career is like a flat line. Not much ups and downs which is not challenging. Maybe I need to further studies to have more faith in my career. Or maybe I just left everything here and flew to any other place in the world and start a new life. And start to learn my new self.

I don't want to be like this anymore. I don't want to be myself. I want a new beginning. I want a new me.